Today jalan jalan / A day at Azeana crips

Well today was fun Just finish watching HSM3 at the movie with Zul, Kenchik and Joe. It is a good movie but my bladder spoil the ending hais. So ppl are playing MERCUN under my block rite now and it is so noisy becos it sounded like gun shot. Those ppl are brainless. Should report the police or not??? So back to the movie. Well everyone was late except for me bcos i am the  first one to reach there eventhough i am from harbourfront doing secret job down there, I still manage to be first bcos i took taxi ahaha. Well we had fun watching ppl trying to win either a psp, nokia music xpress hp or a nintendo ds and boy kenchik was funny bcos everything that boy lose he will like go insane until he is stress out so to prevent that we went out early. So the movie was great.

So now another story, this took place last wk at az crips. Me, zul and fee went to az crips to watch mirrors but as usual me and zul are late ahah. So i then reach az home and i gave them two bags of popcorn and four chocolate and sufirah like it. So actually zul cant make it but after i psycho him he made it haah. I am a psychopatic person hehehe. So then we watch the movie and i think it is slow and so i didnt concentrate onthe talking part but i concentrate on the scary part. So az mom went out and now the place was like zul's. He conquered every pillows and the glasses filled with coke on the table he finish it. I was like damn it and fee was like y my drink is finish and zul will go ur glass has a leak i think. So after watching mirrors got nothing to do so played poker card and zul and az taught me and fee to play some games. SO i played it like a idiot bcos dont know how to play it rite.   So after that we all go out of house and oh yah b4 i forget i noticed that when az mom is at home zul is very quiet and well behave but when az mom is out, he started his madness. So where was i oh yah zul had to go to gym with the guys and as for me i went to mac with fee and az. wow and i was full after comin out of mac ahha. I am talkative though at mac. haiss. 

YUMA outing... Swimming

Pic of me

A picture i found in Dilla's blog. Hey dilla dont mind me takin it from ur blog aite. Wat again i look like a caucasion guy. hahaha. See her blog. But nice picture of me though. ahah

Hari Raya Outing 2nd day

Just a picture on the 2nd day of YUMA raye outing. More update to be posted soon aite...

Prostage work first day...

The picture above the picture of my first day of work with prostage and let me tell u all that it is very tiring bcos we did the hidang hais.. SO many complain. I tell u all more on the next post...

Chupke Chupke Pyaar Hai.......

Well Chupke Chupke Pyaar Hai was a blockbuster but the ending is not happy because the conflict in the middle of the story lead to their separation. All of them separated from each other. Meer, Sharma, Rahul and Rina went their separate ways and lead their own life happily and some not to happy. The story ended with tears on everyone. The story was a hit in the bollywood industry haha. So that is all hope u enjoy the movie.........

Feelings

Losing A Piece Of My Soul

I came to you the hour I was in pain
Looking for answers, I cried to you in vain.

I shared the many skeletons hiding in my heart,
I knew then you'd be my friend,
I knew it from the start.

Troubles ran like rivers, flowing through my life,
You picked the pieces up and help me through my strife.

When home wasn't home to me no more,
You opened up your heart, and opened up the door.

We cried into night until the early morn.
We solaced each other's pain and shared our many thorns.

As time flew, the air grew thick,
I saw our friendship fading, and my heart grew sick.

The day had arrived,
When it was time to say goodbye.

Now I sit alone,
reminiscing the past I'd blown.


Betrayal

by Dan McDonald
An echo fades into the night,
an eerie mournful sound.
A shooting star disappears from sight,
and I crumble to the ground.
There is no life within this garden;
my sobs are the only sound.
I have poisoned the honeyed fountain
where your love could be found.

Dazed, I stare at the stars above,
my grieving howls fill the night!
Unintended betrayal of love
has hidden you from my sight.
I remember how it used to be
when we shared our fears and delights.
You are a treasured friend to me.
How can I make things right?

Feeling afraid, cold and lonely,
I long to tell you how I feel,
but you don’t want to hear me.
The pain for you is much too real.
Should I back away and build a wall
and block away how I feel?
Or, should I give you a call?
We both need some time to heal.

An echo fades into the night
as our friendship disappears.
How do I know what is right?
How can I ease my fears?
If I do call you again,
would the old wounds reappear?
I can’t stand to cause you pain.
Hurting you again is my worst fear!

Starting a new beginning....

Hello there again my name is Usamah. I'm starting a new life starting from rite now that is the 11th October, 11.08pm. Now i really need new identity, new Life, new clothes and new personality. Changing everything. Hmmmm. Where should I start???? Okay nevermind I figure this out.

This week gonna be so tiring because it YUMA raya outing week. FOURTY people will be tagging along and about THIRTY-SEVEN house to visit wow... I really dont know how to plan these raya outing bcos i never done so but if organising Concert or Events i can do it but this outing is different need to plan. Haiisss. So tired man. U know wat i'm not gonna plan it just follow the flow this monday and tuesday. Maybe this wed got NCC training so i think it will be the time that is will go out to school to watch the training. I also want to get the consent forms for the camp too. I cant wait for my first day of work so Zul please hurry up and ask your brother about the jobs... Well maybe this saturday will be the first day i will be working with Prostage network. So it is time to get new black smart pants bcos i think the attire will be chef costumes. Well after seeing the prostage blog, I found that the dancetroupe dancestep is very easy. Just like learning 1,2,3. But it is good. I really wanna a part time job so that i could earn money to buy new stuff bcos i really need new clothes..

This new me is really hard. I hope the result are good. Actually rite i am not turning to good to bad. If u really look at me properly and if u notice actually i'am turning into a better person by helping another person to change to good. Of course it is hard to notice it but i notice it during the Puasa month. I kept thinking when i look at them that whether i did this all or is it somebody else. I think that my good aura is really strong. Haisss. THis is the way i like it.

Everyone changing from bad to good. But me i think i change for the better. It depends on the people who judge my changes whether it is good or bad.

Nevermind i dont want to be sad again. So lets change the song and change to a new beginning...

So I would like to say Welcome to My New Life..............

Game over... It is the end.....

Here i am again....
Feeling miserable....
I would to announce the game that was started has ended....
Everything End and there is no turning back....
Well that the end of my happiness....
End of my everything....
SO i have to start all over again....
I've lost everything....
Everything i had so far is gone....
So i am turning over a new leaf....
I am really sad to know that some of my friends....
That is like my brother to me is moving to somewhere far....
Maybe i dont get to see them anymore....
Everything gonna change....
Well i miss everyone....
School have ended for some of us....
The time spend with all of you was so little....
I am not saying i regret it....
This game that is over was started by them and also ended by them....
This game of life taught me a lesson....
A lesson that i cant forget for the rest all my life....
Nobody can replace any of my friends from both clans....
I think i gonna miss both of my clans so much....
This holiday is gonna be a sad one for me....
Parting with my buddies....
I hope u guys and gerls will enjoy your holiday with your Friends....
How much more months until they move house....
I need to spend time with them until their last day here....
I feel unfair....
Reading my life is a waste of time....
My life is a piece of trash....
Cry if u want to....
But remember this i really appreciate each and everyone of you....
I dont nid any of this anymore....
Let me live in the dark....
Somewhere i am invisible....
I will be moving on to my new life....
But all the precious and happy memories i cant forget....
I may or U may have left me but....
I CANT FORGET U ALL....
All Of you have passed the game of friendships....
I have failed....
So here I say....
Thank you so much for everything and....
Sorry for everything too....
And so here i go....
With everything left behind....
Except for the memories...
Thank you.................

Another day another game another life another....Game Continuition....

Well yesterday i slept late thinking and crying all nite over things. Now i think that tonight will be another long long nite or morning. I never felt this way b4. Suffering through the nite. Telling my feelings to those who it may concern.

I said this to someone in school "I may look happy now but actually I am really very miserable and sad rite now. My face will never show my true feelings."

Now the game is progressing and the only way out is to get hurt real bad. The game of this two has started and now lets begin another game. This game is gonna be more harsher. This game is all about believing while the previous one is about LIFE. In this believing game, the one that is weak in believing is gonna be in big time trouble. Well if u are mad at this game, Dont be mad at me bcoz I didn't plan all this, The game just move on its own and it follow the will. More games to be played and there is more players that is still waiting in line for their turns. The table will turn completely.

P.S. This game is not only gonna hrt others but also it is gonna hurt me more.....

Disappointed, Sad of something..(changes) Something to talk about.. The game for two....

This is gonna be a long post about my long previous post about changes and here it is this is my previous post that was posted in 12/04/08
"Hey welcome again, Todae i am going to post about the topic changes. I hope u have been following my post
until date. I think u also have read about the post at fathin blog . She post something tat actually
affect me a little bit. Well after one of my friend, athirah, read the blog she felt sad well i also feel
that way too but i must control my emotion. But the fact is that i still cant accept when she said about
changes. She said that i have change big time. Well actually i don't change at all.
I just do wat i must do that is choosing the right friend.
The true me have never change i just Dont want to be weak but i guess
physically weak i think so but i am still mentally strong and one more
thing i always put other
people in front of me That is my true self and i just discover it when
i had a msn conversation with athirah so thanks alot. I always been putting
others infront of me.
To me i just dont want to see my friend to get hurt I rather get punish.
So i am always protecting others but i didnt think about myself .
I like it that way.
Well everyone change when we get more mature.
I met alot of people who had change Alot.
I too have change but the friend that i have long time dont
talk to is becoz of some reasons.
Like my oldclassmate from 4A1 i really miss the old time but
time has change and i too has change.
Nobody can change time or noone can avoid changes. I dont
think that i change alot but if i did,
pls tell me what. i cant possibly be the same. I have to toughen
up myself that y i have talking
some rude words and pls dont tell me to change i am tat way.
I want to release my anger
but i just dont release my anger to anywhere but it is kept deep
in my heart until one day when
i will burst and that day is unknown. So pls dont continue to make
me angry cause my life looks
happy but i am misery inside.......

P.S.: Sry to all my friend that i have forgotten but we have to move on."

Well i feel disappointed when someone disapprove me for being someone that i truly am just disappointed. I just dont know how to react. Maybe i have crossed the line this time but someone didnt agree on my real one and someone agree on the real. I am really hurt and this time there is no turning back i nid to choose a path to follow and now wat do you think which path will i choose. Which path will i choose? I dont know. Lets wait and see who can play my game and join my game of life. Like wat i always say to friends when i fight with them "two can play the game". Well its time to begin another game between this person and that person. Its maybe me well let me tell you this game will get harder and harder and the only to way to get out of it is to break yourself into pieces. This game isnt a ordinary game but it is a game that will blow u out showing tre colours of people. Tears and blood may occur in this game.This game will not be played by me. I will just be the spectator. But will the game be played by U.. This game is called the game of life and the player is selected by ME........... Enjoy or maybe Good luck surviving this game.........