This is gonna be a long post about my long previous post about changes and here it is this is my previous post that was posted in 12/04/08
"Hey welcome again, Todae i am going to post about the topic changes. I hope u have been following my post
until date. I think u also have read about the post at fathin blog . She post something tat actually
affect me a little bit. Well after one of my friend, athirah, read the blog she felt sad well i also feel
that way too but i must control my emotion. But the fact is that i still cant accept when she said about
changes. She said that i have change big time. Well actually i don't change at all.
I just do wat i must do that is choosing the right friend.
The true me have never change i just Dont want to be weak but i guess
physically weak i think so but i am still mentally strong and one more
thing i always put other
people in front of me That is my true self and i just discover it when
i had a msn conversation with athirah so thanks alot. I always been putting
others infront of me.
To me i just dont want to see my friend to get hurt I rather get punish.
So i am always protecting others but i didnt think about myself .
I like it that way.
Well everyone change when we get more mature.
I met alot of people who had change Alot.
I too have change but the friend that i have long time dont
talk to is becoz of some reasons.
Like my oldclassmate from 4A1 i really miss the old time but
time has change and i too has change.
Nobody can change time or noone can avoid changes. I dont
think that i change alot but if i did,
pls tell me what. i cant possibly be the same. I have to toughen
up myself that y i have talking
some rude words and pls dont tell me to change i am tat way.
I want to release my anger
but i just dont release my anger to anywhere but it is kept deep
in my heart until one day when
i will burst and that day is unknown. So pls dont continue to make
me angry cause my life looks
happy but i am misery inside.......
P.S.: Sry to all my friend that i have forgotten but we have to move on."
Well i feel disappointed when someone disapprove me for being someone that i truly am just disappointed. I just dont know how to react. Maybe i have crossed the line this time but someone didnt agree on my real one and someone agree on the real. I am really hurt and this time there is no turning back i nid to choose a path to follow and now wat do you think which path will i choose. Which path will i choose? I dont know. Lets wait and see who can play my game and join my game of life. Like wat i always say to friends when i fight with them "two can play the game". Well its time to begin another game between this person and that person. Its maybe me well let me tell you this game will get harder and harder and the only to way to get out of it is to break yourself into pieces. This game isnt a ordinary game but it is a game that will blow u out showing tre colours of people. Tears and blood may occur in this game.This game will not be played by me. I will just be the spectator. But will the game be played by U.. This game is called the game of life and the player is selected by ME........... Enjoy or maybe Good luck surviving this game.........
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